MRI scheduled

I have a MRI scheduled for next Wednesday now.  Things are coming together.  It will be done bilaterally because the doctor wants to make sure nothing is going on in the left breast as well since I have very dense breast tissue, she wants to make sure nothing is missed there as well.  The procedure will show what the extent of the right breast is.  I, of course, am very claustrophobic in small spaces, so I have to be medicated.  I don’t know why, but it is what it is.  Just one of those mysteries of life I guess.

I have selected a Oncologist, so all the information will be sent to them, and then they will call me to make an appointment with them.  I have an appointment on Thursday, the very next day of the MRI with a plastic surgeon, so I am just so busy, busy with appointments.  It would be more fun if the appointments were for a massage, or a lunch date or something on that line, but nope.  All medical hoopla.  Although I did go to lunch today with a friend to celebrate a late birthday with her (her birthday), and it was a very special time.

I am still maintaining my pet business service in the midst of all this, so it feels like I am juggling my time with work with dogs, birds, time with the Lord, friends, family and appointments.  Must try to maintain some kind of normal routine even with such a diagnosis.

Today I have peace in my mind and spirit, so I am thankful for that.  I feel the prayers of all my friends and family, and feel like the Lord is really walking me through this.  I do have my moments where I feel anxiety, or stress headache, and even grief, but that is pretty normal and I cling to my Lord to not stay in those places for very long.  I have been reading the word in bits through out the day when I sit down for a moment and to also focus on the Lord whether I praying or just sitting in His presence.  Christ is sustaining me through this and I do not want to let that go or be robbed of His peace.  This is a hard and odd place to be, but I know without a doubt, that God will never abandon me.

Psalm 28:7 (NIV)

The Lord is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and he helps me. My heart leaps for joy, and with my song I praise him.

Psalm 29:11 (NIV)

The Lord gives strength to his people; the Lord blesses his people with peace.

Psalm 103:1-5

A Psalm of David.

1 Bless the Lord, O my soul;
And all that is within me, bless His holy name!
2 Bless the Lord, O my soul,
And forget not all His benefits:
3 Who forgives all your iniquities,
Who heals all your diseases,
4 Who redeems your life from destruction,
Who crowns you with lovingkindness and tender mercies,
5 Who satisfies your mouth with good things,
So that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s.

New King James Version (NKJV)

The beginning of my new journey.

My new journey started just two weeks ago.  I had actually felt the lumps in my right breast a couple of months earlier, but I figured they were the regular lumps I have had off and on for years.  But something didn’t ring true this time around; they were not going away this time but seemed larger. After going to the fourth memorial in the last six months and this last one being a friend of mine who died of metastatic breast cancer to her lungs, I thought it would be dumb for me to ignore this if it was actually something.

It was time for my annual mammogram anyway, so I called and let them know about the lumps which were probably nothing, but I thought I would mention it anyway. They told me to call my doctor for a diagnostic mammogram rather than a screening mammogram.  It is amazing how quickly they got me into the GYN doctor which was the very next day for him to examine me and order the mammogram and ultrasound.

After those were done, the radiologist ordered the biopsies, and then a few days later the dreaded news came back about an invasive mass noted on the ultrasound.  I have two problematic lumps that were biopsied. [the worst Valentine’s day ever. -Pete]  Both were stage-2 carcinoma; one in situ cancer and the other invasive cancer with calcification in the breast tissue as well.

I met with a female oncologist surgeon on Monday, who specializes in breast surgery which I think is a plus. All the staff in the office are Christians who pray for all their patients.  The doctor gave me several treatment actions that are possible, but I still need to wait for one last part of the biopsy result which is delayed. That test result will help with the direction we need to take.

So at the moment I am waiting for the insurance to approve the MRI, and are waiting on the last part of the biopsy. Then after that I need to decide on an oncologist and hear about other treatment options. So that is where I am at to this point.  I will keep you posted as I find out what the next steps are.

I have to say that I have wonderful support and prayers from my husband, friends, family and church friends. I feel like the Lord is with me through this even though I still go through the normal emotional ups and downs.  Jesus is the rock that is holding me through all of this.  How does anyone go through something like this without God walking them through?  I know He is my strength.