I have gotten so bad about writing here in my journal. It isn’t that I haven’t wanted to, or that I haven’t had things to write about, but I have just been in the transition of getting used to a busy life while still in the midst of recovering. I still get very fatigued even though I am done with my big treatments such as the chemotherapy and radiation; but it just takes a long time to recover. I still have some odd sensations and pain with the recovery from surgery as well, so I am not actually done with all this. I also have reconstructive surgery to be scheduled for later this year.<\/p>\n
My plastic surgeon requires all of his patients to recover a minimum of six months after radiation before he will consider even scheduling surgery. It is plenty of time to think over choices as well. And there are lots of choices. Who would have ever known until you go through all of this. I finished my radiation in the middle of December, so that would make my reconstructive surgery for no earlier than mid June. I have an appointment to see my plastic surgeon next week on May 7th.<\/p>\n
The choices before me are either a saline or silicone implant. Now they just came out with a new silicone implant called the “gummy bear” implant. I think they came up with this one because if the previous one ruptured, it isn’t as harmful to your body. Of course the saline is natural and even similar to your bodies fluids, so if it ruptured, it naturally absorbs into your system. So you wonder why someone would consider silicone over saline if it isn’t more natural, but I will tell you why. When you bend over or move, there can be a ‘rippling’ effect and it looks really unnatural. I have an expander now with saline in it, and it sort of feels like a little water bed when you press it. Silicone on the other hand may be more firm and not feel as natural as a regular breast, so nothing is idea here. I hear that the gummy bear version is even more firm (I haven’t seen them yet), but they are less likely to rupture and cause damage to your insides. At my age, trying to be healthy and active is my goal more so than a more natural feeling breast. I just want my clothes to fit and not have to buy special items to make it work.<\/p>\n
I start my Zometa tomorrow morning. It is a fast intravenous infusion, so it shouldn’t take long at all. I see my oncologist and she will go over my lab work I had drawn two weeks ago, and then I will have the treatment. This will be a routine for every six months while I am taking the Estrogen suppressant medication, or unless I get a side effect that would require me to discontinue it. I figure if I am only taking it every six months, it shouldn’t be too bad. One would hope anyway.<\/p>\n
I plan to be better about writing in my journal. I just was really exhausted trying to get back to the land of the living with my pet service booming and being incredibly busy with dog and other animal clients. My schedule has been pretty impacted and I am adjusting to a busy lifestyle and recovering my strength from all my treatments this past year. It really does take time to recover. I am just starting to get short bursts of energy, but they are short lived and I am ready to call it a day almost before the day is over. When clients cancel because they are not going to work, or their trip was cut short, I am finding I am finding that I am needing the recoup time anyway and am feeling a bit more energy because of it. God is providing the income, so bills are getting met, so I am not worried about it.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
I have gotten so bad about writing here in my journal. It isn’t that I haven’t wanted to, or that I haven’t had things to write about, but I have just been in the transition of getting used to a … Continue reading