Well, I had a diagnostic mammogram on my remaining left breast today, and there was a cyst found. They did extra pictures, then sent me into another room to have an ultrasound and I looked up at the screen and saw a cyst. Then they sent me into that evil waiting room where the radiologist talks to you about the results and what he recommends. He recognized me from last year at this very same time! It felt like I was repeating the same scene as last year. He told me that he didn’t think it was anything serious, but just a cyst, but he recommended a biopsy because of my history.

I told him that when I had the biopsy last year, I was not anesthetized enough! It caused horrible pain and my thoughts were I never wanted to go through this ever again. He said we could just wait and watch it, but I said that it would probably be better if we just made sure. I went through the denial thing last year, and I don’t want to go through that again if it was something.

The biopsy is scheduled for next Thursday which is Valentines Day. I had my biopsy last year on Valentines Day too. That day isn’t a favorite for me pretty much at this point. The gal who was scheduling me said we could do it a different date, but it would be a week later, and I should have it done before my oncologists office visit which would be that same day if I scheduled it then. So I will do it next week on Thursday, and then see my oncologist on Tuesday the following week.

It is probably nothing, but I thought that the last time too… I can’t believe I am going through this again on the same exact days as last year! It is too weird to even think about! The thought passed through my mind that I should have had a double mastectomy, but who would have known? But then again, it is most likely just a cyst.

I have struggled all week with a bad cold and the cough still hanging on as well. It wears me out, so I have been mostly resting, but still I go out to take care of my pet clients. They have been easy ones, so it is just enough. It does help to have a responsibility to get me out of the house even when I am not totally well. The last couple of days were really beautiful, so I was glad to have an excuse to be walking in the sun. Today it is raining and is very cold. I went over to the dachshunds to potty them after I was done at the diagnostic center, and they made me happy with their cuteness. They thought it was too cold to stay out too long, so it was a short visit outside for all of us today.

I am not going to worry about the biopsy. I have several clients next week, so I will be busy and that will be a good thing and a great distraction. My back is actually feeling better, so I hope I am on the mend. I haven’t done my physical therapy exercises yet, so maybe that is why. Ha. No, I am thinking that maybe it is better because it didn’t hurt to sit in the car like it has been, so that is indeed an improvement. I will go be a good girl and do my stretches now and be done with them.